The date is almost to April. I was remembered when I turn to a college student in the first year, I watch an anime which breathtaking my feelings. The anime was named by Shigatsu wa Kimi no Uso or in English was named by Your Lie in April.

In WFH (Work from Home) period, I have so many time to watch again this anime. I think in the last episode when Kousei Arima (the main character) gifted a letter by Kaori Miyazuno is so epic. I don’t know, I think it’s so related to my condition maybe.

At the first time I watch, I think that Kaori’s letter was so mature with his age in 14. In my age at 14, I watch myself only write an ugly poetry and can’t speak fluently to others.

You can watch the episode here. I want to share Kaori’s letter, so you can choose to let’s start to watch this anime or no.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FPKIpJsonaI

Kaori’s Letter

Kaori’s letter

Hey, you!

I mean, Dear Kousei,

You were just here, and now I’m writing you a letter, kinda weird, right?

You’re a mess, you know that? You’re meek, and a quitter, and neurotic.

The first time I ever saw you, I was five years old. It was at a recital for the piano school I went to back then. You marched out onto that stage, and then made us all laugh by knocking over the bench. You sat on that giant piano, and with the first note you played, the world became more colourful. It was like you found a deluxe box of crayons on the keys, and tossed them everywhere Suddenly, the girl next to me starts bawling her eyes out.

And now you’re gonna give it up? Like you never played in the first place? Hearing you that day changed my life, what do you think of that?

So I switched, then and there, no regrets.

When I found out we were in the same middle school, I was thrilled! How was I actually supposed to meet you, though? Buy egg sandwiches every day ‘til you notice me? In the end, all I could do was watch you guys. You were friends, and I was some stranger. It wasn’t my place to barge in, so I didn’t.

I had surgery as a little kid, but I’ve never been totally well. After a bad fall in the seventh grade, I was in the hospital a bunch. Those hospitals stay got longer, bit by bit. I was hardly ever at school by then. Nobody said how sick I was exactly, but I knew it was bad.

Then one night, I saw my mom and dad crying down in the lounge when they thought I was asleep. That’s when I knew I didn’t have much time.

I made a choice:

I ran. And I didn’t look back!

I started living life exactly how I wanted, so I wouldn’t be all mopey in heaven. Contacts are weird, but I tried ‘em. Tried eating a whole cake by myself too, because why not? Music that used to boss me around? I played it my way!

And then…I told one single lie.

Are you ready for it? Here it comes: “Kaori likes Watari!”

Shocking, right? But I’m glad I told it. After all, Kousei, that lie brought us together.

Please tell Watari I’m sorry. Honestly, though, I’m sure he’s moved on to some other girl by now. That’s just who he is. When it comes to friends, he’s a great guy, but romantically, I want someone sincere.

Also, please tell Tsubaki that I’m sorry. It turns out I was just passing through. I didn’t wanna leave a big mess behind, so I couldn’t totally be honest with her either. Think of it: “Hey Tsubaki, be a pal and introduce me to Arima, would ya?” That would have been a pretty messed up thing for me to ask for. I mean, everyone could tell that Tsubaki was crazy about you. Even before we were friends, I knew. The only ones who didn’t get the memo were you and her.

When my life finally brought the two of us together, you were different than I’d imagined: stubborn, and passive, and pessimistic. Not to mention the fact that you stole my leggings. Your voice was lower than I thought. You were a guy, you know? And you were gentle, no surprise there.

Remember when we jumped off that bridge? The river water felt amazing. And the moon shining down at the music room like we could grab it on our tiptoes? When we raced that train, I really thought we could win! Singing “Twinkle Twinkle Little Star” with you late at night felt kinda perfect. Being at school after dark, it’s mysterious, right? And snow, it looks like cherry blossom petals!

You must think I’m silly, finding wonder in the everyday things around us, things I saw with you.

Isn’t it funny how the most unforgettable scenes can be so trivial, and vice versa?

So what’s the verdict?

Was I able to live inside someone’s heart?

And this heart, it wouldn’t happen to be yours, would it?

Do you think that…you’ll remember me a little from time to time?

No hitting the reset button!

Don’t you forget me, that’s a promise, okay?

I’m glad we found each other.

Will I reach you?

I hope I can.

Here’s the truth, Kousei:

I love you!

I love you!

I love you!

Sorry that I never ate those canelés, and that I beat you up so much. I was such a brat to you. I’m sorry for…everything.

Thank you.

P.S. I’m giving you one of my favourite pictures. You don’t have to keep it, but I hope you do.

Oh ya, I think the better with the story of this anime is their OST which so truly amazing and completely crazy. You can watch two of there in below.

Nanairo Symphony

Hikaru Nara